i wish you peace the hurt healer

Give me peace. Give me quiet. Give me a place of silence that I may restore and renew my mind, body and soul.

“Quiet is peace. Tranquility. Quiet is turning down the volume knob on life. Silence is pushing the off button. Shutting it down. All of it. – Amir” ― Khaled Hossein, The Kite Runner

It’s not that I don’t enjoy being busy at home and at work. I love my life no matter how hectic or whatever the challenges a day brings. And it’s not that I don’t enjoy noise. I love the loud squeals of children playing or the blast of joyful music. Vitality and vibrancy are essential to my life. Sometimes though my senses overload with commotion. It’s time to search for peace.

We need to find God, and he cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature – trees, flowers, grass- grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence… We need silence to be able to touch souls. Mother Theresa

Actually, it’s amazing how difficult it can be to find a place that it perfectly quiet. Living in the countryside as I do, it is calm and serene. Yet even in the dead of night there will be a rustle of wind in the trees or the slight bubble of water from the river. It’s not total silence but there is a tangible tranquillity and stillness.

I have grown to love periods of silence and solitude. However, I also know just how torturous being alone with only your own thoughts can be. Throughout the seasons of my twenty year battle with depression I fought with the constant need to fill my personal space with as much noise as possible. It didn’t matter where it came from as long as it was loud enough to distract from my inner turmoil.

Abandoned by my mother and abused by my father had left me with a broken heart and a chaotic mind. My biggest fear at that time was to be left only with myself – a truly terrifying thought. Abusing alcohol was the only way I could manage to drown out my despair, but that was never going to be the solution. Peace of mind can’t be found in a bottle.

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27 NIV

My mission for peace came when I started on my journey of recovery. In the midst of my struggle to overcome depression and alcoholism I sought serenity of mind, body and soul. It was faith that initially guided me on my path to inner-peace and so to healing. With healing came a soothing calm, a reassuring tranquillity and the ability to ‘just be’. Today I am at peace with myself and I seek that sense of serenity with a passion.

Silence has a regenerative power of its own. It is always sacred. It always returns you home.  Barbara De Angelis

john 14As with most things in life, I have learnt the importance of balance. Life should neither be too noisy or too quiet. The more I am comfortable with and able to immerse myself in times of silence, the more I appreciate and enjoy times of busyness.

At the end of the day though, I need to find some solitude.  Just a few minutes of stillness has the power to physically and psychologically rejuvenate and refresh. Whether it’s through reflective music, contemplative reading or meditative prayer, I take time to come to a place of peace. Peace of mind. Peace of body. Peace of soul.

What about you? How do you find your peace?

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